Or at least it’s a path I don’t think I would have ever considered if I were allowed to write the chapters of my own book. The hardest thing about this post was not so much deciding what to say as deciding what not to say. I have several drafts saved already. None of them seemed quite right. I’m making a broad assumption that those of you reading this post are familiar with the story of our family over the last several years, and so I have decided not to retell any of that story other than to say that the change in my goals and direction for 2012 are a direct result of the changes in our family. That story can be told another day.
Here’s what hasn’t changed. I still love wellness and fitness. It’s all I’ve known professionally since 1997. I love the feeling that comes from gathering people together in pursuit of a common goal. I love the relationships that naturally develop as people accomplish ~ and realize that they are capable of ~ more than they thought possible.
I’ve taken a bit of a haiatus from business expansion in order to go back to school and push the boundaries of what should come next. People keep asking me what I plan to do with my education and I am being very honest when I say I’m not sure. I want to work mental health into my future but as I’ve said once already – the future has a way of directing itself. My life feels so unpredictable that it seems ridiculous to announce what I think it will look like in 3 or 4 years. (We’re the family that had the baby AFTER the tubal ligation, remember? lol). All I know is that I still want to make a difference in the lives of other people – that never changes.
School has been terrifying but I love the challenge of academics ~ it’s kind of a rush. The focus it requires to balance school and family (always priority number one) however, has caused me to miss the relationships and focus on other people that have been the primary reward of my work for the last 15 years or so. I have to believe the investement will be worth it.
I can’t remember a time that my new years goals haven’t been absolutely entwined with the goals of my clients and team members. The focus of school seems a little lonely and self-absorbed and it doesn’t leave much time for anything else, but as an FYI for those of you who have been, and continue to be, part of my life and business, here is what I will be investing my energy into this year…
School. I start my fourth semester on Tuesday and I can’t wait. It will be my most challenging semester so far with biochemistry, microbiology, and organic chemistry, but just looking at those course titles makes me shiver with excitement. How could it not? 🙂
Kickboxing. My kickboxing ladies have no idea what a life-line of sanity they are for me. I’ve watched a lot of people work out through the years, and the adrenaline of these ladies is something a little apart. I go home inspired by them after each class. I love that the hours of this program means it is something I can still pour myself into while I study during the day.
Fitness. I’ve set a goal to participate in a June event with a good friend. I’ll keep you posted.
Family. How do you balance everything and still keep your family as priority number one? I’ll let you know when I figure it out. (Please tell me if you’ve found the answer). This is something I keep working on – the biggest, most important and of course, most rewarding challenge of all. I keep playing time forward 10 years in my mind and asking myself, “Is the family I am building the family I mean to be building?” Sometimes the answer seems optomistic, sometimes I know I need to make changes. I sure hope you relate.
I want to say thank you to those of you who have been a part of this blog over the last few years ~ thank you for understanding my time away. Thank you for being part of my life.
Here’s to an unpredictable and amazing 2012.